it just hit me.. if he is admitted to a school in a whole other country, it’s over.
the history with my last boyfriend will have repeaten itself then, only now i will be the one at home. i can’t go through this again. i know how much of his stay will be ruined if he has a girlfriend and i don’t want to ruin it for him. but i don’t want to let him go either. this had JUST begun to get really, really good. i don’t know. i want what’s best for him - i want him to be happy and i know music used to make him happy. maybe not so much lately, but that’s probably because of me. if i’m out of the picture he will surely find his passion again. and i just can’t let myself stand in the way.
but i really don’t wanna lose him.. this is not fair
Reasons why you should have plants in your room
- More clean air
- People think you are cool
- They look pretty
- You can sing to them and they won’t tell you to shut up
- You feel proud when they grow
- You can give them cute names